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Name: Kelly
Gender: Female
Interests: music, movies, books, people.
Expertise: procrastinating
Occupation: college student
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10/27/2008
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| I saw an excellent speaker here at Albion last night. He was Shane Claiborne, author of Irresistible Revolution and co-author of Jesus for President. Hearing what he had to say about faith, love, and life really made me think of the things that I have been forgetting lately. Not just in the religious aspect, but also in my personal path.
I was born and raised in a family in which we recognized that we were Christians, that religion was important and should not be neglected. I didn't attend church, but I was raised to recognize my values and morals as well as understand that there is a Higher Power to help you through the hard times. Recently, I have forgotten what this truly means. I've forgotten to be myself and pursue my own goals rather than the goals of others. I'm not here to impress everyone that I meet, I'm here to live my life and to get the most out of my experience here.
I attend a liberal arts college where the "trends" seem to be becoming a vegetarian, being atheist, living for sustainability, practicing "green science," and despising Republicans. I've lost my way trying to fit in with these post-modern individuals; I've forgotten how to be myself. I shouldn't feel guilty for eating meat, or drinking from plastic water bottles now and then (I recycle), or being "middle of the road" when it comes to my political views. I've also let this experience influence my career choices. I know that I want to major in chemistry and pursue further education, but professors have been trying to get me to attend grad school and become a green chemist. This is not who I am, and I need to get back on my own track. While I don't disagree with the benefits of green chemistry or sustainability, it is simply not something that I can pursue with the passion it needs.
This who I am. I'm a young college student who has gotten caught up in too many trends. I appreciate the community around me. I recognize that I'm lucky to have the experience of the liberal arts education. I also recognize that I need to be my own person and not try so hard to impress the liberal minds here. I also need to try not to forget my faith and sense of self again.
I just thought I would get this out there. And hope that it helps anyone who may stumble upon this. | | |
| It has been a while since I've been on here. There is just too much school work to get through. Sometimes organic chemistry is just too much to handle. And I just realized that I have to take ADVANCED organic chemistry next semester. Bleh.
Also, just got back from spring break. Not nearly long enough. Summer is taking far too long to get here. I can't wait to play outside and go to the beach. And, clearly, I wish to be 5 years old again.
Back to homework. Essay writin' and reading o-chem. Fun times! | | |
| Tons of homework. As always. Though I've been procrastinating a bit this week. Mostly cleaning up the room for prospective students. But that's not that exciting.
Though I am excited that I finally bought a vintage 35mm camera. I wasn't able to match the bid for a Canon AE-1, but I did get a pretty cool looking Kalimar B-3. I'll be able to pick it up on Monday and test if it works. I'm pumped for some film experimentin'. Light, shutter speed, film speed...I'll probably fuck up a few rolls, but that's half the fun, right?
Suppose I should stop procrastinating and finally get to work. Quizzes and exams to study for, reading to finish, and essays to write. Spring break can't come soon enough... | | |
| Xanga, it has been a while.
Finally back at school after 5 weeks of winter holiday. This semester has been busy though. Second half of organic chemistry, calculus I, English, and Latin American History. Basically lots of studying, reading, and papers to suffer through. How do people do this?
I think I've decided to go to medical school. I just really need to study more and get my science GPA up a bit. Been considering ophthalmology, but I'm still unsure. I feel like I have to decide all of this so soon, like if I don't figure out my life right now I'm not going to go anywhere. Is all the pressure really necessary?
I apologize for the rant. Again. Sometimes real life is just to stressful. | | |
| Experiencing a quarter-life crisis. Daunting. Seems inevitable even. The point in time where one realizes that life is sorely lacking a direction. Well, maybe it has direction, but you're just not sure how long you can keep it going that way.
The dilemma: Medical school? Mortuary school? Just finish with a chem degree and hope for the best?
Main concern with medical school is basically if I'm good enough for that. Usually self-conscious of myself so I'm not sure if my grades are good enough, if I'm focused enough, if I'll even make a good physician. I'm interested in infectious disease or maybe ophthalmology. I know I could always go to mortuary school, too. There's not enough time to think all of this through.
Why does real life have to be so stressful? I like music, books, and film...can't I just enjoy those for a living? So good.
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